I don’t know why I’ve been so reluctant to blog about this. I’ve been in constant pain since February. It started when I threw out my back. The minute my back got better, my legs began to hurt. A LOT. I’ve tried physiotherapy, massage therapy, heat, cold, exercise, rest, you name it. Nothing helps. I take prescription painkillers a couple of times a day, but the pain cuts through the painkillers.
Just a few months ago I was walking an hour and twenty minutes every morning to go to work. Now I can’t even walk five minutes before I get severe pains in my left leg. The pain rapidly gets worse until I have to sit down. Sitting hurts too, but not as much as walking. As soon as I stand up, my leg is all pins and needles for a minute or two and then the pain comes flooding back. The last few days have been hell.
I went for an MRI of my lower back yesterday, and today my doctor called to say I’ve got a “significantly protruding disk” which is pinching my sciatic nerve. She’s referring me to a back surgeon as a priority case. She also told me to increase my painkiller intake.
You can tell your life is a mess when you’re heartened by the prospect of back surgery. I am so relieved that there might be some hope of fixing this. It’s been beyond depressing to think I might have to spend the rest of my life living with chronic pain and disability.
To be honest, I’m feeling a bit sorry for myself. So far in 2009 I’ve lost my job, gotten cancer, and been knocked on my ass by unrelenting pain. I paid into a long-term disability plan for 18 years and got laid off right before I needed it. I feel sorry for GC too, who less than a year ago fell in love with a healthy, active employed woman who now has cancer, no job, and can barely make it to the corner store without help. (He refuses to complain about it, so I’m complaining on his behalf.)
In other news, I had the biopsy of my left breast today. They used a different method this time – vacuum aspiration. They hoovered my breast. Then they put a clip in it. And mammogrammed it. Next Wednesday the tumour(s) will be removed.In brighter news, check this out. Have you ever heard of Victoria’s Quilts? They’re a non-profit organization made up entirely of volunteers who make quilts for cancer patients so we won’t be cold during chemotherapy treatments. My mom asked them to make one for me, and a nice lady delivered it to me on Sunday. This one was made by “Kay M. of the Barrhaven Group.” Thank you Kay M., and thank you Mom.