About a month ago I heard somewhere that something was about to happen, astrologically, that would mark the beginning of several years of difficult times for those of us born under the sign of Libra.
Now, I don’t believe in astrology. But I couldn’t help remembering that last year Megan, a fellow Libran, blogged about the astrological forecast for Librans for 2009. Apparently we were all going to face some kind of career chaos. And then – three months later, in March 2009 – I got laid off!
So it kind of unnerved me a bit to hear that I was now entering a period of several years of difficulties.
Especially when you take into account the kind of year I’ve already had, what with breast cancer and back surgery and the layoff and everything. You don’t want to emerge from all that upheaval only to hear that your bad luck is just about to begin.
Despite my insufferable natural optimism, I confess to being a little nervous these days. Jumpy. I’m scanning the shadows, searching for things that might be waiting to ambush me. And now that I’m looking for them, I realize they’re everywhere!
First, there was that breast MRI a few weeks ago that showed the new lump. “It might be nothing,” said the doctor, “or it might be cancer. We’ll just wait six months and see.”
Meanwhile, I had an ultrasound the other day that revealed a big old fibroid tumour in my uterus. Fibroids are almost always benign, so that’s good, but I’m probably looking at some kind of surgery to get rid of it.
And then, last night, at 1:00 in the morning, I had an MRI of my back at the General. This was just routine follow-up by the neurosurgeon who did my back surgery. I don’t know why, but after seeing my images, the MRI radiologist ordered a more extensive set of images – with a dye injection – to be performed tomorrow morning.
In the past, when I was ridiculously healthy and Libra was enjoying an extended period of grace and good fortune, I would have seen this as just a nuisance. But now? Now I’m wondering if this is IT. The Big One. The Beginning of the End.
What do the rest of you Librans think? How’s your luck holding up these days? How’s your health? You think I’m being paranoid, or is the universe really trying to kill us all off?