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Jumpy Libra

About a month ago I heard somewhere that something was about to happen, astrologically, that would mark the beginning of several years of difficult times for those of us born under the sign of Libra.

Now, I don’t believe in astrology. But I couldn’t help remembering that last year Megan, a fellow Libran, blogged about the astrological forecast for Librans for 2009. Apparently we were all going to face some kind of career chaos. And then – three months later, in March 2009 – I got laid off!

So it kind of unnerved me a bit to hear that I was now entering a period of several years of difficulties.

Especially when you take into account the kind of year I’ve already had, what with breast cancer and back surgery and the layoff and everything. You don’t want to emerge from all that upheaval only to hear that your bad luck is just about to begin.

Despite my insufferable natural optimism, I confess to being a little nervous these days. Jumpy. I’m scanning the shadows, searching for things that might be waiting to ambush me. And now that I’m looking for them, I realize they’re everywhere!

First, there was that breast MRI a few weeks ago that showed the new lump. “It might be nothing,” said the doctor, “or it might be cancer. We’ll just wait six months and see.”

Meanwhile, I had an ultrasound the other day that revealed a big old fibroid tumour in my uterus. Fibroids are almost always benign, so that’s good, but I’m probably looking at some kind of surgery to get rid of it.

And then, last night, at 1:00 in the morning, I had an MRI of my back at the General. This was just routine follow-up by the neurosurgeon who did my back surgery. I don’t know why, but after seeing my images, the MRI radiologist ordered a more extensive set of images – with a dye injection – to be performed tomorrow morning.

In the past, when I was ridiculously healthy and Libra was enjoying an extended period of grace and good fortune, I would have seen this as just a nuisance. But now? Now I’m wondering if this is IT. The Big One. The Beginning of the End.

What do the rest of you Librans think? How’s your luck holding up these days? How’s your health? You think I’m being paranoid, or is the universe really trying to kill us all off?

19 comments to Jumpy Libra

  • I’m not a Libra, but I know a lot of people who are having a bad year this year (and very few who are having an exceptionally good year). I’m sorry to hear things are getting worse, not better. At this point, I’m just hoping 2010 will be better.

  • Nat

    On the fibroid… I have one too. It’s little they say… there was a study being done at the Women’s Health Centre at the Riverside which looked to use radio ablation to get rid of fibroid tumours…

    This year feels very very rough, all around. (Though your year seems to have been harder than most.) I’m not sure being Libra has much to do with it though.

  • Oh, great. I’m a Libra. The past two years were traumatic career-wise, but I managed to hold onto my job. The current angst I am experiencing is in the home improvement area, so maybe I should call a halt to future projects for a while?

    I have not felt all that good lately – nothing specific, just a lot of blah and feeling like I am coming down with something that never materializes. My New Year’s resolution is to get a physical.

    Hope ALL your health issues turn out to be benign!

  • When the western zodiac isn’t working I like to switch over to Chinese astrology. This is year of the Ox. What sign are you Zoom? I will dig around and find a fun website with believable, good stuff. I hope this scary time is behind you very soon. Sending you positive energy.

  • My mom’s a Libra and she’s doin’ just fine.. job good, health great.

  • Joanna

    Zoom, say NO.
    NO! Enough of that. You are NOT taking any more of this kind of luck. This is it!
    Remember Harrison Ford in Witness? How he said “Enough!”?

  • Perhaps just a tad paranoid, although it’s understandable, considering. And you know, when an eternal optimist “falls” to the dark side, she/he falls hard. Paranoia is just the opposite extreme on the pendulum swing. On the bright side (where I still live), that metaphor implies you’ll swing back out of scared-for-the-fate-of-the-universe mode and back to your normal state. Yay! Something to look forward to!

  • Julia

    @Joanna, I paid to see Witness 15 separate times in the cinema when it came out in 1984.
    “Is the English dead? Looks dead.”
    “Get up! 4:30, time for milking!”
    And when I went to live in England for a year in the 90s, my husband, who stayed home, would say to me most weeks by email, “Be careful out among them English.”
    Loved it!

    No advice for you this time Zoom, sorry. I also think astrology is silly. But I liked Laura’s advice about switching to the Chinese astrology.

  • Just change astrologers to get a more positive horoscope.

  • Julia

    Actually, I was immediately reminded of the line from the song on Hee Haw:
    “If it weren’t for bad luck, I’d have no luck at all.”
    http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hee_Haw

  • Oh gawd, Julia – now i’m going to have that song stuck in my head all day. ;-) along with this one: “I searched the world over and thought I found true love. You met another and pffft you was gone!”

    And Zoom – try not to assume anything. It doesn’t help and it just makes the waiting that much harder. I always remind myself that the VAST majority of people who are sent for tests find out that nothing serious is wrong. Why shouldn’t you be in the majority?

  • Gillian

    One plus that you can look at is, at least you’re in the system and they’re looking at things, so maybe there’s less waiting. So I hope they find something good instead of bad.

  • J.

    I’m a libra and I do find that I need to take of myself a bit more. This year, my joints hurt more doing body pump and my back as better a little sore here and there, but it’s nothing to write home about. This year has been the year of me being clumsy, forgetting things and I find myself daydreaming a lot more.. you could say that I don’t feel all there.

    I’m looking forward to 2010. I put a lucky cat in my kitchen, hoping that it will bring me good luck. :D

  • Jenny

    Well, I can’t say about Librans, but I’m an MRI tech. At our clinic, the dye is routine for spine scans if the patient has had surgery in the last year. It shows things a bit differently than a regular scan, and some radiologists like to see post-surgery pics without and with gad, rather than just without. Sometimes different rads have different protocols, so maybe the techs thought one rad was reading it but it turned out to be a different one, and now they need to call you back. Hopefully that’s all. No one likes to admit mistakes… so they don’t say the reason for the call back, and then the patient is worried!

  • See, this is what I love about blogging. Thanks to all of you. I feel so much better after reading Jenny’s explanation.

    Also, I saw my oncologist today, and she seemed to think the new lump that showed up on my breast MRI is nothing to worry about.

    So I’m most likely fine, just a little skittish is all.

  • kimmie

    a fellow Libran predicts you are fine! :-)

  • merriam

    Zoom, be sure to follow up on the fibroid. The one I had was in the wall of my uterus and protruding into the cavity, causing enough bleeding that I needed two blood transfusions. After four emergency visits, three hospitalizations, two surgeries, a 90-day period (nearly bought stock in a pad company!), and many iron pills, the fibroid and anemia are finally gone.

    IMO, astrological predictions are primarily entertainment and conversation starters, not accurate predictions. Keeping an uplifted attitude is much more useful!

  • lucy

    I agree you should follow-up on the fibroid just to make sure it isn’t causing any trouble. If it’s not causing trouble and is not growing too fast, you may very well be able to live with it and just keep monitoring it. They tend to grow faster when you’re pregnant (mine did, and my baby/fetus had a lot of fun playing soccer with them) and sometimes die off as one reaches menopause (but I’m not there yet so I don’t have experience with that). I and most, if not all, of my female relatives have them and so far only one of my cousins has had problems with hers, something like what Merriam describes.

  • Jannet

    I too feel the world want ne died or maybe GOD dislike me, too.
    1. JUNE 2009- I GOT BLAME AND YELLED NY FATHER IN LAW FOR
    SOMETHING THAT I DID NOT EVEN DO AND GOT
    SHINGLES.
    2. JUNE 2009-FATHER ALMOST DIE FROM TAKING BATH AND
    AMBULANCE CAME.
    FATHER GOT FOOD POISON AND HAVE TO GO TO
    HOSPITAL DUE TO BODY DEHYDRATION FROM
    FOOD POISON. MOTHER START GETTING REALLY
    SICK FOR NO REASON SUCH AS DIZZYNESS AND GET
    REALLY BAD COLD SWEAT EVERYDAY AT 2AM
    3. JUNE-PRESENT-MOM STILL COLD SWEAT AT 2AM
    4. JULY-BEST FRIEND BLAME ME TO SOMETHING I DID NOT DO AND
    END UP BREAKING OFF OUR FRIENDSHIP
    5. JUNE-AUGUST-I STILL HAVE VERY BAD SHINGLES
    6. SEPTEMBER-SISTER DIAGNOSED WITH BREAST CANCER
    7. SEPTEMBER-NOVEMBER-SHINGLES GONE BUT NOW SCARS ARE LEFT
    ALL OVER MY LEG AND I CANT EVEN WEAR SHORTS
    ANYMORE
    8. OCTOBER-NOVEMBER-UNKNOWN ALLERGY TO WHAT I DONT
    KNOW BUT I HAVE TO TAKE
    CORTISONE SHOT AND LOTS OF SKIN
    OINTMENT LIKE 2 60GM MEANWHILE SKIN
    LOOKS RED LIKE SUNBURN AND BURNING
    LIKE SOMEONE THREW ACID ON MY BODY
    9. DECEMBER-CAUGHT A COLD AND LOST MY VOICE AND COUGHING
    TO THE POINT MY STOMACH HURT SO BADLY

    SO YOU SEE I REALLY DID HAVE A VERY BAD LUCK YEAR.