For months now I’ve been dreaming almost nightly of smoking cigarettes. It’s always the same. I’m smoking, and I’m so disappointed. Then I wake up, realize it was a dream, and feel relieved. A couple of nights ago there was an unusual twist – I dreamed I was smoking again, but this time it occurred to me I might be dreaming. I concluded I wasn’t, and proceeded to feel disappointed, but then I woke up and realized I had been dreaming and was so relieved. (I haven’t had a cigarette for a few years now, and I don’t miss it, so I don’t know why it still figures so predominantly in my dreams.)
I also dream a lot about getting laid off. I started having this dream several years before I got laid off, and it continues even now, probably once a week or so. You’d think the dream would have stopped after it came true, but no, it didn’t. It’s always the same too – I get laid off and I feel like it’s my own fault.
For about 10 years I dreamed almost nightly of apartment-hunting. Even when the dream was about something else, apartment-hunting was always going on in the background. I kept finding perfect places and terrible places, and exploring mazes of rooms and thinking about the possibilities. Often I found my dream home, but with a single deal-breaking fault, like there was no bathroom, or the devil lived in the basement, or it was a three-hour commute to work, or it was just a three-month sublet, or it was in an elevator shaft, or I could live there but I’d have to hide from the real tenants, who would also be living there. But other than that, it was perfect.
Do you have recurring dreams, or recurring themes to your dreams? Do you think they mean anything?